Saturday, October 3, 2009

October madness...

I've not written a blog article for the past couple of days because, well, I haven't.

I really appreciate my time and place on the web and I particularly appreciate that folks do read what I put out there. Your participation in my life has come to mean a lot to me. Really.

However, I also know that no one on the web has suffered greatly from my absence of a few days. And, I've learned from my and others' experience that, for me, it's better to not post an article than to either attempt to write some thing when I'm particularly negative (and in the disease rather than in the solution) or force something that isn't honest and relevant.

October is generally a great month for me. I enjoy winter and I'm generally ready to let go of the suffering of the summer heat. I also really appreciate the wild swings in temperature and weather we experience. I love pumpkin pie.

But, this October, in particular, has been one long dread in coming. I have some "stuff" to take care of in the middle of the month that I have no clue how I can possibly deal with it. Frankly, my best strategy so far has been to hope for a wholesale miracle. It can happen. It has happened in the past.

But, it hasn't happened yet.

Of course, it's not October 15, yet, either...

We all know that time and seasons are these arbitrary things we make up. I've spent a lot of time thinking about this the past few days. Last October, we were given a trip to Hawaii in October and I missed the transition into winter here. I realize from her blog that ML is leaving spring and heading into summer in Southern Africa now. What a strange deal this time thing is...

I have no problems that are beyond God's grace, now.

I hope we all have a lovely October weekend...

8 comments:

Mary LA said...

Thinking of you Ed and hoping things get better. Sharing troubles does make a difference --

dAAve said...

One of the great truths I have learned since I got sober is that everything that should happen, will happen.

Carol said...

It's nice to come and go from meetings and blogs and be welcomed back without any of that 'where were you' crap.

Madison said...

I agree with Carol, but, where were you?

Pam said...

I would like to go somewhere to watch the seasons change, maybe a couple of days, then head back down to Texas. I love looking at the red leaves on calendar pictures for Fall.

Scott said...

I like what dAAve said... and have faith that you can deal with whatever comes, God usually works that way!

prayers for you...

Mary Christine said...

Hope for a wholesale miracle. It usually happens in some form or another. Best wishes for yours.

Syd said...

I hope that the mid month miracle occurs. But every day is a miracle isn't it?