Sunday, May 17, 2009

Life is funny...

(from today's funnies...)
C. Dickens' broken watch - it only kept the worst of times...

Today I face a familiar and awful problem. I have committed to accomplishing far more this week (this month, this summer, this year, this lifetime, this day, this moment, this ...) than I can possibly do. Even with God's help...

As many times as I've thought I've surrendered this defect (or, actually the whole system of defects that set up the familiar behavior), I'm sickened to get back to this feeling one more time. I am completely overwhelmed and I have no one but myself to blame for setting it up this way. Every one of the expectations that I have of myself (it really doesn't matter as much these days what others think of my activities), I know I will fall short. It all will not get done in the time frame that I said it would. To myself and out loud...

I guess there's just one more lesson of surrender here for me today.

I will do what I can and call it perfect...

Thank God I'm not so perfect that I can't learn something tomorrow...

Ed

1 comment:

Syd said...

Your life sounds like mine today.