A simple, straight-forward decision. I've not acquired the booze yet but I really have just had enough of this pain the bother of a life of service. I see others all around me enjoying their lives. And they drink. Why not me?
I know I've had problems with drinking but that was 26+ years ago. A lot has changed since then. By many measures, I'm worse off today than I was then. It seems my experience is that, if you want to have fun, project an image of "importance," and enjoy the real fruits of hedonism, you might as well drink.
So, I guess I'll just drink.
I know this decision will cost me something. My wife will likely leave. The family will follow her. I may as well abandon my home and friends. You know, consequences will come due but, well, some days it just doesn't feel all that neat being me. Really.
So, it's time to escape.
If it gets really bad and I don't die, I suppose I could always come back. I've seen a few do that. Some who try to come back in are able to stay. Others, well, I guess it's just a chance one has to take. It's hard for me to imagine, but I suppose it might be possible (coming back).
I doubt I'll be able to keep blogging when I'm drinking. I really have no axe to grind against AA - it worked perfectly well for me for 26 years. And, it's just not my natural style to go to any special efforts to do something like this. Since I expect to be homeless and without means, it would be unlikely I could find the resources to write much of a blog. At the very least, I'd have to re-title this one and find a new theme to write about. I suppose that's no great loss to the world either.
So, I just thought I'd let y'all know about my latest good idea.
And, if you believe any of this today, you might be as much an April fool as I am....
8 comments:
Oh, that lovely life I left behind.
I'm not as gullible as I used to be.
Your tongue must have been poking right out the side of your cheek with this one. :)
However, you did not have me fooled for even a second. Sorry! LOL
PG
I was wondering where it all was leading, seeing it was the first time I popped by your blog... Glad you were joking! : )
You are brilliant. I actually believed the first sentence for about 5 seconds because I believe that I know you Ed. I know that you are a man who realizes the consequences of alcoholism. I didn't have it in me today to be an April fool. Maybe just a fool.
You can't con a drunk, Ed. I had you figured out at "I woke up this morning." LOL!
But WAIT! What about that workshop you're supposed to chair at the convention??? (Yes, I am still gullible, but I figured it out halfway through...)
Good one!
Kim from sAn Antonio
As far as April fools jokes go, I think I don't really like this one.
I have known far too many real fools.
Besides, I would miss you too much.
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