But, I didn't.
...and, I didn't get my lazy butt out of bed and write an article either...
I have a general idea that I want to write a blog every day. You could say that it's been my "intention." I've not been anywhere near perfect, to date, of meeting that intention. In the past 13 months, I've published about 270 articles and at least one of the hiatuses was over 3 weeks long. So, we're clear: I'm not perfect at this or anything else in my life.
As I started writing this article, I searched this blog for the word "commitment" and was, frankly, sort of startled that I'd liked some of what I've written about this in the past. It would seem from what I've written here that I have a pretty good grasp of the principles and the concepts involved.
So it would seem...
The other thing in my head today is that this past week I was stood up by three different sponsees.
- One, I fear (real word), has put himself in the precarious position that he's claimed to have finished his extensive 4th step and has failed to show up, as agreed, four separate times to dig into a 5th step. I've seen that lie expressed in an undone 4th step get people drunk before.
- Another had a fight with his girlfriend the night before and wound up oversleeping.
- This morning, a young man just didn't show up but, well, I've just not heard his excuse yet.
On the other hand, at best the excuses offered (or not offered but implied) by my sponsees express an underlying rudeness and disrespect. At worst, they may be, in fact, evidence of the character defects that are at the core of their alcoholism.
So, I suppose the "right" way to end this article would be to really express my commitment to show up every single day - reliably and as an example of the recovered alcoholic I aspire to be today.
You'll notice that's not here...
Instead, what I will offer is an acknowledgment of my having learned something today and an expectation that you (and I) will probably judge me by my actions rather than my intentions.
Won't that be exciting for all of us?