If they only knew how long and how hard I tried to forget about Ed.... To just get rid of him. To numb the racket of him out. And I was really looking for a once and for all solution...
The best I've found to date to do this is the program of AA.
I think I know what people mean when they say in some of the meetings I attend that "AA is a selfish program." I just really hate it when they say it.
My experience has been that selfishness is the basis for the despair that led me to seek a permanent solution. There is no doubt today as much as there was no doubt 25 years ago that selfishness and self-centeredness was the root of my problems.
What I have as an antidote to that today is selfless giving and humility.
When I truly live in that space (happens occasionally), I get to forget about Ed for a while.
That is a solution for Ed today...
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That's very cute.
I hate to hear "it's a selfish program" too. ick.
Hey you...what's-your-name, nice post. Somehow I forgot who I was long before I stopped drinking--but never forgot what I wanted. EVERYTHING! For King the baby--Steve
I hear that in Al-Anon but have heard that in AA the focus needs to be on others while in Al-Anon we strive to keep the focus on ourselves. I think that selfish behavior is contradictory to step 12.
lol that's clever Ed! It's good to get out of ourselves, um by whatever means I guess lol!
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