Saturday, May 8, 2010

In sickness...

OK - I have 3 minutes to upload a blog article to explain my absence (this time for both reading and posting) and the only thing that comes to mind is:
"I've been sick..."
OK - that doesn't work for me either, but it's the closest to the truth that I can find today.

No, I'm not in ill health (thank God!) - what's been going on is:
  • a new job (thank God!)
  • fear
  • lots of work on commitments that have fallen behind
  • fear
  • a deep seated ego-illness that has decimated my spirit
  • fear
  • judgments by myself and others around me
  • fear
OK - I think I can see what I could eliminate to regain some of the vast amount of time that I used to enjoy sharing on this medium.

From my own life, that of sponsees and virtually every direction I've turned to over the past few weeks, the message has been all about: "...what is it you're really committed to today?  Life on a spiritual basis or dying from the disease of alcoholism?"

Today, I ask God to remove my fear and direct me to who he would have me be.

God is good and AA works...

Blessings to us all...

12 comments:

Mary Christine said...

Sorry you've been sufferin'. But I am glad you are back.

Peggy G said...

Glad you are here. As a "newbie" I benefit greatly from your honesty. Thanks.

Syd said...

Good about the new job. I hope that your spirit will soar again. The ego-illness is something that gets each of us at times. I like being committed to living!Great to read you again.

Mary LA said...

Good to see you back Ed and I hope things get easier.

A big hug my friend.

Scott said...

many thanks for your scathing honesty... sometimes that is required if we are to grow and be well.

we've all been there and come out the other side, glad you're coming back out my friend1

Child of God, First Class said...

Ed-

Bless you and thank you for your honesy - I am right there about 2 minutes in front of you and I can tell you what you already know - this too shall pass.

Ain't this thing grand?

God Bless!

More of this thread here

http://rectitudeabsolutely.blogspot.com/2010/05/all-you-need-is-love-totus-vos-postulo.html

Bobby said...

The last thing you want to hear when you are feeling this way is that it will pass and you will be okay.It is far more complicated than that. Taking small steps and allowing yourself to feel bad helps. Good luck and best wishes.

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Elizabeth R. said...

I love your honesty!

Elizabeth
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Anonymous said...

WHAT YOU MUST DO TO BE SAVED

To be saved, you must believe in the Lord Jesus Christ (Acts 16:31).

However, that's not all. Sacred Scripture clearly shows other things you must also do to be saved:

• You must endure to the end. Matthew 10:22, Matthew 24:13, Mark 13:13.

• You must accept the Cross (suffering). Matthew 10:38, Matthew 16:24-25, Mark 8:34, Luke 9:23, Luke 14:27.

• You must be baptized with water. Mark 16:16, Titus 3:5, I Peter 3:20-21.

• You must be a member in God's true church. Acts 2:47.

• You must confess your sins. James 5:16, I John 1:9.

• You must keep the Commandments of God. Matthew 5:19-20, Matthew 7:21.

• You must heed the words of St. Peter, the first Pope. Acts 11:13-14, Acts 15:7.

• You must eat the flesh and drink the blood of Jesus Christ. John 6:51-58, I Corinthians 10:16, I Corinthians 11:23-29.

• Our justification comes from the grace of God. Grace is favor, the free and undeserved help that God gives us to respond to His call to become children of God, adoptive sons, partakers of the divine nature and of eternal life. CCC 1996, John 1:12-18, John 17:3, Romans 8:14-17, 2 Peter 1:3-4.

The only Church that meets all the requirements of Salvation is the Holy Catholic Church.

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